AlmostThere
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My Tagline:
Trying to believe
My Interests:
Meditation, Angels, Origin of life debates, Music, Books, Education, Travel, Crafts, Art, Environment, Holistic living, Yoga, Health, Depression, Sports, Fitness, Family, Pets, Dreams, Mountain biking, Pilates, Animals
My Favorite Books, Authors, Musicians, Movies, Preachers, TV shows, etc:
Elephant Song, Wilbur Smith, Dan Brown, Self-help books, Discovery channel, Prison Break,
Who Inspires Me:
Philosophers, Al Gore, Oprah Winfrey, Mom
What is your current spiritual mood?:
Frightened
What's your spiritual type?:
Spiritual Dabbler - I'm open to spiritual matters but far from hooked.
About Me
I was diagnosed with major depression two years ago. I was put onto anti-depressants and saw a therapist weekly. After 6 months everything seemed to be back to normal and I felt 'fine' again.
Unfortunately I think it's slowly coming back. One day I will have a major boost of inspiration and then other days I get side tracked and feel very low. My mind is on the go 24/7 but it's all negative thoughts. I change my mind all the time and can't seem to pick some kind of direction for my future. I have made lists of things I want to do and deep down I know what to do but I never seem to plunge forward into actually doing it.
My previous relationship was very painful and this was one of the biggest contributors to my negative, sad life. I am struggling to meet someone as I have this fear of relationships, doubled with low self esteem. I hate compliments and over the years I seem to have developed these very strong mindsets about myself. I smoke and drink and absolutely hate it with a passion and would love to stop. My dog is one of my best friends. She is blind and gives me huge inspiration (on positive days)
I am looking for a new life a change. I want a full, busy and positive life. I need help to overcome my fears and pain. I want to be fit, healthy and happy again. I enjoy reading these stories and quotes and they do lift my spirit. I'm almost there....
My Basics
Location: Johannesburg SR
Gender: Female
Relationship Status: Single
Faiths:
Spiritual but not religious
AlmostThere's Journal
Posted: May 13, 2008 4:33 PM
I have finally met someone and I am about to mess it up. I can't get my mind under control and my fears are taking over. I keep telling... (more)
Posted: May 4, 2008 3:11 PM
Today was such a lazy, boring day. The only thing I seemed to achieve from my weekly short term goal list was waking up fairly early... (more)
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